birthday boy

well, today (25 June 2008 ) is my 21st birthday… Happy birthday to me!!!!

Last night, i got a very lovely surprise from my beloved friends. I thought there won’t be any surprises, but they surprised me with a very smart scenes… Thank friends, i really do owe it to you! I Love you guys…. And then we stand up til the morning up til 5.30 a.m.

Great thanks for Robin Hisar, Irwan Ranuh, Putri Atmadja and Annisa Paramitha.

I’m 21 already. But it wont be this worthwhile without you all.

once again, thanks

i am 21,.. aaaaaaaRRRRRgHHHHHHHH

erry’s top 27 cHaRt (24 June 2008)

welcome back to erry’s top 27 chaRt, sorry for the late posting, but here is the chart for this week

1. (2) Pork and Beans – Weezer
2. (1) Sweet and Low – Augustana
3. (6) If I Never See Your Face Again (feat. Rihanna) – Maroon 5
4. (3) Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold (A7x)
5. (7) Viva La Vida – Coldplay
6. (4) No Air (feat. Chris Brown) – Jordin Sparks
7. (10) I Kissed A Girl – Katy Perry
8. (14) Forever – Chris Brown
9. (12) Car Crash – Matt Nathanson
10. (13) Labels or Love – Fergie
11. (5) The City is At War – Cobra Starship
12. (19) Bye Bye – Mariah Carey
13. (16) Like You’ll Never See Me Again – Alicia Keys
14. (23) Check Yes Juliette – We the Kings
15. (21) Heartbreak Makes Me A Dancer – Sophie Ellis Bextor
16. (8 ) Leavin – Jesse McCartney
17. (24) This is Home – Switchfoot
18. (22) When I Grow Up – Pussycat Dolls
19. (25) Summertime – New Kids on the Block
20. (SounDebut) She Said – The Day
21. (11) Lucky (feat. Colby Caillat) – Jason Mraz
22. (17) Mercy – Duffy
23. (SounDebut) In Love with A Girl – Gavin de Graw
24. (SounDebut) That’s Not My Name – The Ting Tings
25. (SounDebut) The Call – Regina Spektor
26. (SounDebut) Just for Tonight – One Night Only
27. (18 ) What You Got (feat. Akon) – Colbi O’Donnis

UNDERChaRt

1. Here I Am – Leona Lewis
2. Cry For You – September
3. Ten Thousands Nights – Alphabeat
4. Singin in the Rain – Mint Royale
5. Denial – Sugababes

This Week’s No. 1 –> Pork and Beans – Weezer

BRAVO pour WEEZER…. i like this band since their very first album… and they still got the beat!!!! I LOVE WEEZER so much…. and i dont want to comment anything…. this song’s just so weezer and so i love it..

This Week’s SOUNDebut

1. She Said – The Dey –> This trio has a very freat lyrics on she said. And i like the voice of the lead vocal, it makes me think of my Mom, and very touching. This song’s really goes to all the mommy in the world.
2. In Love with A Gril – Gavin de Graw
   
3. That’s Not My Name – The Ting Tings –> WOw… this duo has a catchy beat song, with simple lyrics, its just makes me want to move… What a catchy song. I Love the Ting Tings.
4. The Call – Regina Spektor –> I Like the movies (Narnia : The Prince of Caspian) and this song has a very strong lyrics… and btw, i missed Spektor way far from Infidelity.
5. Just for Tonight – One Night Only –> Seems like listening the Killers in British version

erry’s top 27 chaRt 17 June 2008

This is now the time for this week’s TOP 27 Chart….

17 June 08 TOP 27 ChaRt

1. (3) Sweet and Low – Augustana
2. (6) Pork and Beans – Weezer
3. (1) Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold
4. (8 ) No Air (feat. Chris Brown) – Jordin Sparks
5. (10) The City is at War – Cobra Starship
6. (11) If I Never See Your Face Again (feat. Rihanna) – Maroon 5
7. (13) Viva La Vida – Coldplay
8. (4) Leavin – Jesse McCartney
9. (5) 4 minutes (feat. JT and Timbaland) – Madonna
10. (17) I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
11. (7) Lucky (feat. Colbie Caillat) – Jason Mraz
12. (18 ) Car Crash – Matt Nathanson
13. (21) Labels or Love – Fergie
14. (26) Forever – Chris Brown
15. (12) It’s Not My Time – 3 Doors Down
16. (23) Like You’ll Never See Me Again – Alicia Keys
17. (9) Mercy – Duffy
18. (15) What You Got (feat. Akon) – Colbi O’Donnis
19. (SounDebut) Bye Bye – Mariah Carey
20. (16) Dreaming with a Broken Heart – John Mayer
21. (SounDebut) Heartbreak Make Me a Dancer – Sophie Ellis Bextor
22. (SounDebut) When I Grow Up – Pussycat Dolls
23. (SounDebut) Check Yes Juliette – We the Kings
24. (SounDebut) This is Home – Switchfoot
25. (SounDebut) Summertime – New Kids on the Block
26. (22) Never Too Late – 3 Days Grace
27. (25) American Boy (feat. Kanye West) – Estelle

Bubbling Under Chart :

• She Said – The Dey
• Here I Am – Leona Lewis
• Just for Tonight – One Night Only
• Love No – The Teenagers
• Fast Car (feat. Paul Simon) – Wyclef Jean
• Time to Let Go – Marcos Hernandez

This Week Number 1

Sweet and Low – Augustana

I really loooovveeee his voice… I already liked this band from their single Boston, but in Sweet and Low, they take it to next level!!! (actually, i just dont like the fact that there’s another band that could take Avenged Sevenfold’s place at number 1 on my chart). But what could i say, sorry Avenged, but i do admit that Avenged Sevenfold way more gorgeous than Augustana.

This Week’s SounDebuts

I have six SounDebuts this weeks, so i don’t want to comment about it (i’m in a rush right now). But I’m sure that Mariah Carey’s Bye Bye are the best SounDebut this week.

a touch of sakura, hot chocolate caramel and a ‘couple’ of friends

I feel bad today…..

Still about that special someone… Last night we had an argument, this special someone still insist that the two of us would never have any chance at all, while i still believe about the possibilities if only this special someone give me a li’l chance….

We ended up the conversation (on the phone), with a lot of things unsaid, and with no conclusion.

Then i started thinking, am i the fool one!!???

All this time i trusted this special someone, but this special someone never trust me in anything… I’m not talking about love, or relationship… I’m talking about a simple thing, trust…

In every relations, even just a relation between customer and a cashier in a supermarket, need trust! But this one that i have with this special someone has no trust. Am i that bad??? SO that i cant be trusted???

Then a thought crossed my mind. is it now the time to let go this relationship? Should i forget about all the possibilities? Should i stop listening to my feelings? Should i stop missing this special someone that i never met before???

For a second or so, i was so sure about leaving this relationship behind!!!!! Then i went sleeping….

But when i woke up this morning, just like every other morning before, i miss this special someone already,… i try not to message this special someone,… but still i cant get my mind out of this special someone! Damn!

Then i realized, my feeling was true, i shouldnt ever leave this relationship!!!! But still i feel bad!!!

I dont know which way this relationship is going to… i know nothing!!!

Then i know… i need something to brighten my day…

Today was too sad… i Miss that special someone so much that i might kill myself, while i still had doubts in my mind about this relationship….

Fortunately, today i found three therapies that brighten up my day… a call it a triple blended blessing on a cloudy day… hehehehe

a Touch of Sakura–> I put a nice sakura in a vase on my bookshelf, and it makes my room a lot warmer… I like the color of the sakura, it makes me feel like i am enjoying autumn in Japan (why autumn???? dunno! ahahahahahah). Well at least, from now on there’s a touch of life in my room… hehehehehe

hot chocolate caramel–> i dont know whether what they were saying is right or wrong. But i do belive that when i have a bad day, coffee wont help much, but hot chocolate will help! That’s why i really wanted a nice hot chocolate, then i asked my friend, whether one of them would join me for a hot chocolate hour. At the cafe, i i ordered a large cup of hot chocolate caramel, and then i sipped it while it still hot, a li’l sip, a li’l sip… and every little sipped i feel like i’m letting go my bad feelings.. it was really calming!!!

Sakura and choco caramel wont do nothing without anyone to share. Thanks god, my weird-couple friends (which is nisa dan irwan) are more than happy to spend the night with me!! We played cards, sipping chocolate and latte, laughed, and then i dont feel that bad anymore, even with the fact that tonight, that special someone didnt call me!!! Nisa were so cute sipping her chocolate.. aaaah what a day…

to be concluded:

sakura+choc.caramel+weird-couple friends = a nice therapy for a bad day

love is the air i breathe

Yesterday was a very busy day! I woke up at 7am for int’l communication class, at 10am got a bad news that my minor thesis need another data enrichment, then at 1pm I’ve got a company profile to be translated to English, after that, I had to finish the research proposal about biofuel and 3^rd world nation’s comparative advantage, and then at 7pm I had to go out dinner with some friends of mine just to welcoming the weekend. That wasn’t my normal day, usually I’ve only got three to four events a day, and only two requires thinking, the remaining was usually pleasures.

But even on a hectic day like yesterday, I can’t stop thinking about that special someone (refers to the one who I described at “Love: Defining Liabilities” post). It seems like no matter how busy I am, the thought of this special someone always managed to get through…

The fact that I don’t have the right to call first, makes me crazy. Imagine, missing someone so bad, but cant even call nor messaging??? I wanna kill someone!!!

Despite all of those things above, I do still happy and still loving this special someone. The thought of this special someone always helps me to get through the day. Everyday I will be waiting a message or maybe a call from this special someone. And it keeps me alive everyday.

Seems like love is the air I breathe. Somehow, the thought of this special someone, the temptation, the curiosity, the missing, the butterflies were all too well to keep me alive everyday. Now I can face the world bolder, stronger and better. 

Based on what I described about, for the first time in my life, I believe what they always say about love as the air we ‘breathe’. There are many songs about love and ‘breathe’, some of them that I could recall are:

• Backstreet Boys-Drowning

“Every time I breathe I take you in,

and my heart beats again,

baby I can’t help it,

I’m drowning in your love”

–> Hmmm…. Think of love as an ocean, so if I have to die, I’ll die breathing the love for this special someone.

• Sixpence None The Richer- Breathe Your Name

“You are in my heart, I can feel your beat,

and you move my mind, from behind the wheel,

When I lose control,

I can only breathe your name”

–> Very strong words, can’t explain 

• Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown- No Air

“Tell me how am I supposed to breathe with no air?

Can’t live can’t breathe with no air

That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there

There’s no air no air

If you ain’t here, I just can’t breathe”

–> Love is the air in the context of this song. Tell me how am I supposed to breathe with no air?????

• Take My Breathe Away (too many version)

“Watching every motion in my foolish lover’s game

On this endless ocean, finally lovers know no shame

Turning and returning to some secret place inside

Watching in slow motion as you turn around and say

Take my breathe away, take my breathe away”

–> it’s ok to take my breathe away, because from now on, love is the air I breathe

• Tony Braxton- Breathe Again

“Will I never make love to you once again

Please understand if love ends

Then I promise you, I promise you that,

That I shall never breathe again,

Breathe again, breathe again”

–> when love ends, there’s no more air to breathe.

• Mario- How Do I Breathe?

“How do I breathe, without you here by my side?

How will I see when your love brought me to the light?

Where do I when your heart is where I lay my head?

When you’re not with me, how do I breathe?

How do I breathe?”

–> I’m breathless now…

• Maroon 5- Harder to Breathe

“Is there anyone out there coz it’s getting harder and harder to breathe?”

–> God, I need air!!!!!

Those songs maybe best to describe how right now, love is the air I breathe, love keeps me alive from second to second, minute to minute, day after day, month past another month, maybe until year through year, just waiting when will I see the face of this special someone!

I’m sure, when the time comes, I’ll stop breathing, not because I don’t have any more love to breathe in… But I’ll be breathing through this special someone’s heart and love.

Kamu dimana?

Erry’s – top 27 Chart 10 June 2008

it is time to update the chart….

here is it.. this week’s erry’s top 27 chart

Top 27 Chart (10June 2008 )

1. (2) Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold
2. (4) Touch My Body – Mariah Carey
3. (6) Sweet and Low – Augustana
4. (7) Leavin – Jesse McCartney
5. (3) 4 Minutes (feat. JT and Timbaland) – Madonna
6. (9) Pork and Beand – Weezer
7. (5) Lucky (feat, Colbie Caillat) – Jason Mraz
8. (17) No Air (feat. Chris Brown) – Jordin Sparks
9. (1) Mercy – Duffy
   
10. (12) The City is At War – Cobra Starship
11. (20) If I Never See Your Face Again (feat. Rihanna) – Maroon 5
12. (11) It’s Not My Time – 3 Doors Down
    
13. (24) Viva La Vida – Coldplay
14. (10) The Way I Am – Inggrid Michaelson
15. (8 ) What You Got (feat. Akon) – Colby O’Donnis
16. (14) Dreaming With a Broken Heart – John Mayer
17. (26) I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
18. (21) Car Crash – Matt Nathanson
19. (15) Bossy – Lindsay Lohan
20. (16) 1492 – Counting Crows
21. (SounDebut) Labels or Love – Fergie
22. (18 ) Never Too Late – 3 Days Grace
23. (SounDebut) Like You’ll Never See Me Again – Alicia Keys
24. (19) If This is Love – The Saturdays
25. (13) American Boy (feat. Kanye West) – Estelle
26. (SounDebut) Forever – Chris Brown
27. (22) SIck – Sam Sparro

Bubbling UnderChart (the possible SounDebuts)

• When I Grow Up – The PussyCat Dolls
• Bye Bye – Mariah Carey
• Heartbreak Make Me a Dancer – Sophie Ellis Bextor
• Do The Panic – Phantom Planet

Wow.. Finally Avenged Sevenfold reached number 1 position

–> Avenged

First time i heard their song (which was ‘Almost Easy’) i do love this gorgeous band!!! But i never thought they’d have a song like Dear God…. This song was a powerful rock ballad, nice voice, nice melody and nice lyrics…. Oh… this is the song that could beat Duffy’s Mercy….

Way to go A7x… Have a very nice revenge

This Week’s SounDebuts

• Labels or Love – Fergie –> This the second officials single coming from fergie’s repackaged album (The Dutchess) … I love fergie, she can sing any song.. From Fergalicious to Big Girls Dont Cry, back to Clumsy til Finally, she really has a very nice album!!!! And for those who love Fergalicious or London Bridge… This song would attract you too…

• Like You’ll Never See Me Again – Alicia Keys —> Just listen to this song.. At first glance, i didnt like this song,,, but this song is nice.. really… and if u could realize it, there’s a part of this song with a really good beat.. Way to go alicia.. give us ur kinda beat… in this song, alicia seems like wanna go back to her very first single ‘fallin’.
• Forever – Chris Brown –> If fergie has her album repackaged, Chris Brown too. With the Special Edition of Exclusive: Forever Edition, Chris Brown released his 5th single from his album (Exclusive). This song’s really nice… u can feel the feeling of the singer.. just listen, close ur eyes,,.., and dance like forever..

Erry’s – top 27 Chart- (3 June 2008)

Top 27 Chart (3 June 2008 )

1. (-) Mercy – Duffy (2 weeks at #1)
2. (-) Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold
   
3. (5) 4 Minutes (feat. JT and Timblanad) – Madonna
4. (7) Touch My Body – Mariah Carey
5. (3) Lucky (feat. Colbie Caillat) – Jason Mraz
6. (9)Sweet and Low – Augustana
7. (8 ) Leavin – Jesse McCartney
8. (6) What You Got (feat. Akon) - Colbie O”Donnis
9. (14) Pork and Beans – Weezer
10. (11) The Way I Am – Inggrid Michaelson
11. (12) It’s Not My Time – 3 Dorrs Down
12. (13) The City is at War – Cobra Starship
13. (4) American Boy (feat. Kanye West) – Estelle
14. (10) Dreaming with a Broken Heart – John Mayer
15. (17) Bossy – Lindsay Lohan
16. (18 )1492 – Counting Crows
17. (SounDebut) No Air (feat. Chris Brown) – Jordin Sparks
18. (20) Never too Late – 3 Days Grace
19. (21) If This is Love – The Saturdays
20. (SounDebut) If I Never See Your Face Again (feat. Rihanna) – Maroon 5
21. (26) Car Crash – Matt Nathanson
22. (23) Sick – Sam Sparro
23. (16) Long Road to Ruin – Foo Fighters
24. (SounDebut) Viva La Vida – Coldplay
25. (23) See You Again – Miley Cyrus
26. (SounDebut) I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
27. (17) Teardrops on My Guitar – Taylor Swift

BUBBLING UNDER CHART (the next SounDebut)

• Labels or Love – Fergie
• Forever – Chris Brown
• No Substitute Love – Estelle
• Do The Panic – Phantom Planet
• Bye Bye – Mariah Carey
• Big Ideas – LCD Soundsystem

MERCY-DUFFY…. still at number 1 this week…

I Really like her album…. my favourite tracks are Mercy (starting to get bored) and Delayed Devotion and Serious… SHe take me back in time… Everytime i listen to her album i feel like I’m listening to an album with the collaboration of Joss Stone, Amy WInehouse and Macy Gray…

Way to go DUffy… JUst move to rockferry and paint your house with sorrow

This Week sounDEBUT

1. NO AIR (feat. Chris Brown) – Jordin Sparks –> Yes i know i’m a little bit too late.. this songs aint new and shouldnt be this week’s SounDebut, but what can i say… the first time i listened to this song, i didnt get it and i dont like it at all… but last week when i try to listen again, i just realized how jordin and chris has a very good harmony in this song… and i like the lyrics…
2. IF I NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN (feat. Rihanna) – Maroon 5 –> The first time i heard this song was about 3 months ago when i got Maroon 5 album -it wont be soon before long-. To be honest, i never thought that this track would be released as a single, my bet was ‘wont go home without you and nothing lasts forever-. I Like ‘nothing lasts forever’ better than this track, but because of Rihanna, this song sounds better, i like the way Levine and Rihanna singing this song,,,
3. VIVA LA VIDA – Coldplay –> I think i’d better say nothing about this single. This is my favourite track on Coldplay’s Viva La Vida
4. I KISSED A GIRL – Katy Perry –> Katy Perry, i never heard of her before this song, and she has a very nice voice with a very good character… i like the way she sings… and her lyrics’s strong !

the limitation of line: deadline

huaaaaa….

i’m so sleepy… can’t hardly sleep cause of this fuckin minor thesis writing. sudah 2 hari tidak tidur, dan terancam tidak tidur lagi malam ini.

kenapa sih deadline daftar sidang harus tanggal 13 Juni????

Damn, i’ve only got 4 days left…. shouldnt be wasting time blogging…

ciao

love: defining liabilities

For everything there is always a reason. What about love? Does it need a reason to? well Boyzone once said “don’t love me for fun girl, let me be the one girl, love me for a reason, let the reason be loved’

well boyzone got a point here, maybe we all already heard the term unconditional love, i think there’s no such thing existed, there must be a reason or two entail behind. Love is one of those absurd things with no real existence but with a very real experience of feeling… thats why when love comes, they always say that ‘love is in the air’

Under normal circumstances, one must find something attracting and/or interesting in other so that might give the impulse to feel something different in the air, i call this love.

(Find a Reason) –> (Shiver inside) –> (accumulating love) –> (loving someone)

well that was in the case under a normal circumstances…

right now, i feel love differently, i fall for that special someone, without ever able to testify for what reason. look i meet this someone on a chatroom, while i was having nothing to do, and i expected nothing back then from the chatroom, it was just for killing my time.

This special someone brought me over to neverland… yes it is, because right up til now, this special someone hasnt becoming any more real to me…

we just message and call each other every now and then, but what i feel is real, i feel love, and it grows…

this is not a normal circumstances… and it makes me think again.. am i crazy??? maybe i dream too much, but everytime we had a conversation, i feel like i want to touch and love..

thats why i want define the liabilities of this feeling that bothering me so much these days…

i know i know it sounds silly to fall for someone that you never seen before. but this special someone kept my curiosity high, and kept me doing silly things that i never done before for someone else…

in short, maybe this is what a feel

(found this special someone) –> (loving this one) –> (accumulating love) –> (try to fulfill my curiosity) –> (defining new liabilities) –> (to keep loving/might consider leaving)

hahahaha… maybe this one sounds more logic…

but yes i’m crazy for this one….

it’s just the way this special someone makes me feel… hehehe it reminds me of step’s song…

“its the way you make me feel, spinning my world around, tell me how can i walk away, i don’t care what they say, i’m loving you anyway”

yes yes…

and i really want to see the face of this special someone…

i found a very representing songs for this situation, maroon 5 feat. rihanna – if i never see your face again

Sometimes you move so well
It’s hard not to give in
I’m lost, I can’t tell
Where you end and I begin

It makes me burn to learn
You’re with another man
I wonder if he’s half
The lover that I am

Now you’ve gone somewhere else

Far away
I don’t know if I will find you (find you, find you)
But you feel my breath
On your neck
Can’t believe I’m right behind you (right behind you)

‘Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before
And if I never see your face again
I don’t mind
‘Cause we gone much further than I thought we’d get tonight

Baby, baby
Please believe me
Find it in your heart to reach me
Promise not to leave me behind
(Promise not to leave me behind)

Take me down, but take it easy
Make me think but don’t deceive me
Talk to me bout taking your time
(Talk to me, talk to me)

last time we have a conversation, we reached an agreement.. i promise that i’ll never try to find out this one’s identity by any means, in return this special someone promise me to never leave me behind…

i’ll take this weird relations real sweet, low and slow.. cause i dont ever want to lose this special someone

June 7th 2008.

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